I cannot believe it’s been 12 days since I have done a post. Where is the time going?
There was one night a few weekends ago and I was in a hotel with my husband, 4 yr old son and 16 yr old stepson. We had taken a journey two hours north of our hometown to see my husband’s Mom. She had come down on a seniors’ bus tour to a casino. She is 81 years young and has the playful nature of a teenager. There were 76 who came down on the bus. All women, including the driver. My mother-in-law’s friend, partner in crime for the tour, is 87 years young. We were stunned. If I was asked to guess her age I would’ve said 75 years old.
That night after our first social gathering with them, I was laying in bed trying to sleep, but my 4 yr old is a wiggly guy. So, I stared into the dark and practically wrote a blog in my head. I laid there thinking I have to remember this one and get it down on paper as soon as I get up in the morning. Well, that never happened. And all I remember from that blog was the first word….clues. What was I trying to write about? Why was clues significant?
I have figured out that clues are all around us. Clues to what we are searching for. Clues to understand our circumstances, the people in our lives and the life we are striving for. It is a matter of taking the time to pay attention. Not rushing from one thing to the next.
My university course finished up at the end of April, and I was going to jump right into the next one. You know. Just get it done. But, I had a feeling in the pit of my stomach as I read the course description and started going through the enrollment process. Then, I said to myself “Stop. Listen.” I needed to take the time to understand that “feeling”. It was a feeling of “take a break.” However, I had in my head that I had to charge on and just get another one done so I could graduate with my certificate at the end of this year. But, does it really matter whether I graduate December 2017 or Spring 2018? In the grand scheme of things, “No.”
I look back at my mother-in-law and her friend. The smiles. The giggles. The twinkle in their eyes seeing grand kids and family. These are things that really matter. So, I am going to pay closer attention to the “clues” that are guiding me to what really matters in life like family and connection. I need to stop the “charge ahead” where I put my head down and just plow through whatever it is I need to do in that moment of time. It is a way of being left over from my corporate working days. But, I know different now thanks to the six months of MKE. And I can be and do different. Thank you clues, in whatever form you show up in. You are a source of wisdom. I promise to take the time to heed your message. Happy clue searching everyone.